september almost end, wake him up!

greenday said wake me up when september ends.

i'm not a believer of horoscope, but i bet every magazine would say that last august is a frikin bad month for a virgo like me. no, actually its mid august until few days after september start. i always told myself that september is my month, its a happy month and it should be.

i ended august with a big hole in my heart. i started september trying to fill it up. i spend my birthday with another pretentious. i'm always happy on my birthday. some people think birthday is just another day, but i'm one of those people who take birthday seriously. i'll never forget my birthday this year. seriously.

i ain't happy on my birthday, only a bit and theres nothing special. nothing special from everyone who i expect from. i wasn't happy back then. nothing compared to my other birthday. the second worst birthday is a flat one but at least i'm still happy cause i got everyone, and i mean everyone.

i dont expect something like surprise. i do love surprises, more than any gift. i love any kind of good surprise, i'm not talking about my birthday anymore, just general.

i spend almost half september pulling myself together. i changed and i dont like it but i think thats for the best. but i wonder why i do cause i told myself not to change regardless the reason. maybe my mind just thought its all for the best. but somehow i dont like my change and i dont like the change. i used to be okay being who n how i really am. however bad mean or anything.

okay my point is, september is almost over. i really do hope my "horoscope" for october is a veryyy good one. cause i've had enough bad one on august. that sucks so bad !
i will never put and torture myself into that situation ever again !

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