This is the worst situation, yet. I have never thought that everything would come down to this. Everything wasn't great, but it was good enough for me. I am asking for more, but if it couldn't happen, the way it was was good enough for me. I do not ever want it to be worse. I was being my best, I was being my nicest. I'm not sure even other people could be like this after everything. I deserve to be appreciated. I deserve to be thanked. I deserve to be fight for.

Some people might find me silly, but I still believe that everything is possible and everything can work out if there is effort. If the effort wasn't enough, then there is more effort that can be put in. One friend told me just now, if you never try you'll never know and if there is effort there will always be a way, everything will always be possible. Pessimistic is what may be the enemy. But everything can work out, just talk it through and find together a way to solve the problem. Decisions are not to be made so easily, cause we all know regrets come last but sometimes nothing can be changed.